< Piro >
Monday - May 13, 2013
Y'know, i had words for this rant running through my head all day as i tried to take care of things before heading in to the hospital tomorrow morning. I admit, it's been kinda fun saying to various people "Oh, i'm fine, i have heart surgery tomorrow" It's not often you get to say stuff like that.
Oddly enough, i actually feel much better today than i have for months... but that's just because i went off the beta blockers the other day and i'm not walking around like a zombie. I forgot what it was like to actually be awake most of the time. As I head into this cardiac ablation procedure tomorrow (take a look at some of my recent rants if you haven't already heard enough about my health problems since December) there is one thing that i take a lot of comfort in. For a lot of people (and i've actually heard from people who this is true) health problems often result in a change in their lives that isn't really ever going to get better. I could easily have had to face this chronic exhaustion and weary condition as my 'new normal'. This isn't the case for me because after tomorrow, if everything goes well, i should not only feel better, but i won't have to take the meds that slow down my heart and have given me months of experience i can use to write about zombies far better than i EVER wanted to. I should be able to get back to my 'old normal'.
Yes, please. My 'old normal' would be nice. Sure, i was a whiny emo pathetic moron, but at least i was able to DO things. I look forward to my 'old normal'. Please. Kthx.
I have left SO many things undone over the past few months, it's been awful. The only thing i seemed to actually be able to do well at all was sit down and draw. That worked out ok, i did some nice artwork during this time. But i'm ready to get back into the thick of things, i'm tired of being tired. For that reason, i have been eagerly awaiting going through this procedure.
I've had a flood of kind words and support about this over the past few months, and for that i want to thank you. I don't say this much, but i do honestly feel that Megatokyo has the best fsking fanbase in the world. It's one of the reasons i am so down on myself about things - for this fanbase, you guys deserve a lot more than i've been able to give over the past few years. Hopefully after tomorrow, i can do something about fixing that. More comics? That long awaited Omnibus and beach scene with mizugi action? A Megatokyo Visual Novel game perhaps?
Let me get through the next few days and maybe we'll see. :) I'll let you all know how i'm doing as soon as i can. Thank you very much for your support.
PS: i am kinda tired, it's late, and, um, i 'm not even gonna spellcheck thsi dmn thig, so please forgive any awkward in it. :)